Doubt without Fear
This past weekend I had the privilege of attending a conference hosted by Entrepreneurs Organization (E0). While my business dictated that I not take three days away from my business, fate had other plans.
For me as an entrepreneur, wife, mother , and woman I don’t think there is a day when fear of failing does not enter my mind. Did I make the right hiring decision? Are we meeting customer expectations? How do I support my husband without losing myself? How do I continue to teach my children to be successful? How do I take care of myself as a woman while meeting the needs of the family, employees and customers?
So, I have spent the last month meditating on how I can initiate decisions without the fear of dropping any of the balls I juggle in the air frequently. Asking God for strength and a spirit of guidance to make the best decisions with the information given. At times, I have to admit that I have become paralyzed to make immediate decisions fearing it will not turn the results I desire.
Now, I am sitting in the grand ball room of the W Hotel in Austin, Texas, Nando Parrado is announced as the keynote speaker. I know him as the survivor of the Andes plane crash that the movie, ALIVE was based upon. As you can imagine this international award winning speaker, provides us a detail account of his mental, emotional and physical survival of something so tragic I don’t think any of us can fully comprehend the experience. I don’t think I can clearly even describe what I felt during his time of recounting the experience.
Every decision each surviving member of this plane crash made was a decision of life or death. To eat or not to eat, stay on the mountain to not stay on the mountain, from Argentina to Chile two of the survivors, Nando being one of them had to make trip to leave the plane crash to reach a point of either death or survival.
But out of this this tragedy, Nando recounts the story of one of his dearest friends, Arturo Nogueira, who passed due to injuries. Arturo a spiritual, young man, advanced in years, gives nightly prayers as the survivors go to sleep each night. He shares that God is not a God of hatred that would allow this to happen. His God is bigger than any God humankind can create. You can have doubts without being fearful that you are a person in the wrong. Doubts are okay. The answer to my meditations and my prayers: I can have doubts but without fear.
So it is okay to question your faith during times of struggle. You are not wrong if you have to make decisions where you doubt your final judgment, but know you made the best decision with the best information. Nando had clear doubts that he would make it out alive but he persevered.
I as a business woman can take the best information and make a decision and still have doubts. But, not allowing fear to take hold and stop me from making ANY decisions. As a mother and wife, I can make decisions on the direction of the relationships or mentoring my children. I know I have done everything I could and still doubt. But, not let fear get in the way of trying. I can give the best customer service and still disappoint a customer and question whether there was something more we could have done. I can evaluate but not let my fear of failure stop me from growing my team.
From this day forward, I will have doubts but I will not let fear drive the final path I take. What doubts consume you with fear and how do you overcome?